Hell, this hurts.

Well, I'd just like to say,Life, you bitch, throw everything you have at me. I'll still be standing in the end and so much stronger.
I say this because right now my life is throwing shit at me, but it isn't the usual drama, I don't know how to deal with whats going on right now. I can't control my emotions right now, I slip from happy to sad to outragously mad in the matter of minutes. It sucks, I can't relaxe for i minute without something setting me off. I can't deal with my lack of ability to play my timpani part right now because I can count it, I can read the music, and I know the notes, but when we play it together I can't. I've always been able to do something when I put my mind to it, but this just seems to block me. Then, there are my grades, they're doing well, but i hate myself because they slipped so drastically. Now I have to have my parents yell at me to be motivated to do anything. Then, on top of that I'm having issues with my friends. I can't open up to half of them and the other half, I'm always scared I'm to open to them. I don't want them to be annoyed by me, but I need them. And finally, I can't write anything worth reading. Nothing at all, even poetry. I feel like my world was stolen from me. But despite how negative I sound, this is really giving me hope. Its sick, I know, but all these challenges will make me a better person.
Robert Frost once said "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life; IT GOES ON.